Mite ngaihdam a om, thil nuamtak ahi. TOUPA' ngaihdam a om, huai theihkhiak bang houh, nuam seem ahive. TOUPA' Ngaihdamna tang, tua experience mi khat adi'n midang, mihinpihte ngaihdam haksa lua cih omthei mah hiam? Kiveelhuai leh kidothuaipi ahi.
Heutupa Rev L. Kamzamang in NGAIHDAMNA tawh kisai, mimal thiltuah a gelh manpha sa in (amah phalna la zou in) DEW ah amah gelhna pau mah in i suah hi.
Confession III
On June 15, 1997, around 6/7 am, one uncle came from my village and informed us that my older brother and cousin got kidnap and killed by KNF (P) last night. They heard two gunshots and couldn’t find their body.
On June 14, 1997, my older brother (L. Khamsuanmung) visited my grandfather for prayers as he plans to go to Seminary in Kerala the following week. After the prayer, they (my cousin, Chinsuanthang and him) went to my cousin’s place for dinner. On the way, they met the militants, who caught them and killed them.
This was one of the reasons among many, that led to an Ethnic clash between our tribe (zomi) and Kuki for almost a year. It was bloody, messy with gunfight almost every day. Many lost their lives, their families, their homes, their villages etc. Many became handicapped, drug addicts/ alcoholics, violent, dysfunctional and suffered from PTSD.
When my father announced that he has forgiven the militants, we were furious! But when the Civil war broke out after ten days, I literally smile because this is my chance to take revenge. I went haywire!
Fast forward, after I became Christian, God continuously works in my heart to release my hatred and forgive my enemies. I resisted so many times and justified my actions. One day, the Holy Spirit reminded me that my bitterness and unforgiving spirit is a bottleneck towards my freedom and growth. And I need to forgive others just as much as Christ forgave me.
I confessed my sins and released everything to HIM. God does the impossible! He slowly transformed my mind and take away the anger, bitterness and grudges I always have towards the Kuki tribe. I was even invited to preach in the same village we burned down several years before.
Forgiveness cannot be fake, pressure or forgotten. It begins when we realized how much we are forgiven…not just once, but daily...
Forgiveness is a process, not just an event. Some take shorter and others longer, depending on how deep the cut is.
Forgiveness liberates us and transformed our worldview.
Forgiveness is Christlikeness.
Midangte ngaihdam theihna hunpha I ngahlai in midang, I hinpihte ngaidam ni maw. Mi na ngaihdam cia'n mi nih in suahtakna ngah - ngaihdam a om 'minu/ mipa' leh a ngaidamtu 'nang'! TOUPA'N thugelh leh simtute A' aw neem hong zasak lai hen aw!
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Note: Htp Rev Kamzamang in, EBCC Delhi April 11, 2021 kikhopna ah Thutak ankuang luina hong nei kha. Link kipia ah ngaih theih (minit 13-40 sung ah):
